"Angel"Sunday, March 18, 2012
"I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the LORD. For his whole life he will be given over to the LORD.” And he worshiped the LORD there.- Hannah, I Samuel 1:27-28
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Now here I am, romanced by God again, drowning in His love, and feeling this infinite gratefulness for the life He gave me. Twenty five years ago, after 5 years of being married to my father, my Mom had the worst news of her life. It had been confirmed that she got severe ovulation problems, because there were cyst formation and adhesion that caused her dysfunctional ovaries. (ok, medical words that i really couldn't explain) The doctor told her that it was impossible for her to bear a child.
I may never be able to picture for myself all of my parents' frustrations and desperation, or grasp the heights of their hopes to still build a family nor experience their devotion and faith in God for a miracle, but there are only few things that I surely know. One is that we're all sharing this abundant JOY in celebrating my Life today. and, I'm now typing out and sharing my story because I could no longer contain all that joy in my heart.
"The very first genuine personal prayer I uttered to God (someone who I really don't know yet) was when I found out that you were in my womb." - Mama
The verse in 1 Samuel tells me that I am worshipping an amazing, awesome and unchanging God. I believe that there was only one ingredient to my life. As soon as the whole family learned the news, my Grandmother, who'd always been very faithful to God, visited a Pastor and asked him to pray for my mom. He prayed and spoke blessing to my family. Indeed, the prayers here on earth start all the action in heaven. What He did thousands of years ago to Hannah, He still does today. God granted my life even when the natural and the physical didn't permit it. He started my life with a miracle, and had never stopped performing miracles every single day. Now tell me, what else could I do aside from offering and giving back this life to Him? Just like Samuel's life, my whole life will be given over to the Lord. God, I can forget all the things in this world, but not this kind of faithfulness that You did 20 years ago. Every single day, every morning as I wake up, every night before I sleep, I will remember Your goodness and Your love thus I will honor You!
Yet You brought me out of the womb; You made me trust in You…From birth I was cast upon You. From my mother’s womb You have been my God. From birth I have relied on You, you brought me forth from my mother’s womb. I will ever praise You. ♥♥♥ Ps 22:9-10
More than my existence granted 20 years ago, my FULL life was already granted on the cross 2000 years ago! Thank You Father!